Meant To Be

AUTHOR: Akay
DISCLAIMER: Sarah and David own themselves. The shows belong to Joss and his ppl.
TIMELINE: Towards the end of season three of Buffy
SUMMARY: It’s Sarah and David’s last few scenes together, will they come clean about their real feelings.
PAIRINGS: S/D (B/A)
RATING: PG13 mostly, some NC-17
AN 1: I understand that Sarah and David are married to others and respect their choices. I mean them no harm in writing this fic.
AN 2: Hey this is the first SD thing I’ve ever posted, the idea just came to me, let me know if I should continue

Chapter 1


Sarah sat there quietly in David's lap, thinking about how it was going to be the last few days that they would be working together. She wanted to tell him not to leave, not that it would really do any good. Besides it was a great opportunity for him, he was getting his own show, and she wasn't going to stand in his way. Still that didn't mean that she wasn't going to miss him, he was her best friend she never enjoyed working with anyone as much as she did with him. And now they were down to one of their last scenes and she couldn't help the sadness that crept into her heart. She loved him, deep down she knew she did, but sometimes love isn't enough especially when a marriage is involved.

He was supposed to be happy, he was getting his own show a few more scenes on Buffy and then that was it, after that he'd be on his own. Sure he knew it was a great move for his career, but it tore him apart to think that he would be leaving her, when he loved her so much. No that was wrong he wasn't supposed to have those feelings, he was married, he'd tell himself that all the time. It's funny how none of it seemed to matter when he took one look at her. And now she was sitting in his lap, playing with his sleeve and all he could do was tighten his grip on her, not wanting to ever let her go.

They sat there and joked and made one of their last scenes a fun experience, anything to take their minds of the sorrow they felt. It's not like they would never work together again, the producers had mentioned some ideas for crossovers but it wouldn't be the same, they wouldn't be around each other everyday, but it was something they would have to get used to.

After a long day of shooting their scenes they made their way to their cars. David walked her to her car and wished her a goodnight. As he turned to leave he stopped and spun back around.

"Sarah" he said walking back towards her. She looked up as she started her car.

"Yeah."

"Are you hungry?"

She smiled, she wasn't but she wanted more than anything to spend whatever time they could together. "Yeah." she said

He smiled as he climbed into her car, and they went out to get a bite to eat.

They spent most of their time out talking rather than eating. Neither was really interested in the food, rather the company. It felt so natural to David being with her, he had never felt like he could be himself around any other than Sarah, and she felt much the same. They talked about the shows and just about the usual stuff two best friends would talk about. Everything was going well until his cell rang. It was his wife wondering where he was, and why he wasn't home yet. He told her he was out with some friends and would be home later. After he ended the call the mood of the evening seemed to have changed, reality slammed down in front of them, Sarah knew nothing could ever happen between them.

They didn't talk much on the drive back to get David's car. All Sarah could think about was the fact that her heart was beating so fast it was about to jump out of her chest, just from being so close to him. Would he always have this effect on her? It didn't matter she had to stop thinking about it, nothing could ever happen between them, EVER!

David sat there in complete silence, his palms sweating like a fifteen year old school boy, while looking at her through the corner of his eye. 'She's so beautiful' he thought to himself. Married or not whenever he was around her he just couldn't help himself. He wanted her so badly, but did she feel the same, could he have a chance with her? He needed to know, he needed to find out.

When she pulled up next to his car she cut the engine, and turned to face him. "Thanks for dinner, it was nic-"

She didn't even get to finish her sentence before his lips captured hers in kiss. Pushing him away she was shocked. "What are you doing?"

"I don't know." he replied in a husky voice, before seizing her lips again with his own. This time she responded, giving into his kiss. Their tongues seeking out each other. Their hands everywhere, aching to feel the other in their arms.


Chapter 2

"Oh God." She said as she pulled away from him.

"Oh God." he replied thinking that she meant the kiss; she did just not in the way he was thinking.

"What are you... Oh God." she said as she clutched at the steering wheel and tried to put some distance between them, it was proving to be difficult in the car.

"Sarah, I'm sorry. I just… I've wanted to do that for so long." He said immediately regretting it. How could he do this to her, how could he put her in this position?

"You’re married." Was her only reply.

"I know, it's just sometimes I think that maybe-"

"Don't finish that." She begged. She couldn't be that girl, the one to break up a marriage. No that wasn't her, no matter how badly she wanted him.

"I'm sorry I can't help the way I feel." he pleaded

"Yes you can and you will, this can't... we can't... ever."

"Sarah please."

"Goodnight David." she said as she turned the keys in the ignition. Without a word he got out of the car, and then leaned in through the opened window to look at her.

"Goodnight."

She glanced up at him quickly, her heart nearly breaking at the sight of him. She wanted nothing more than to tell him how she felt about him, and what that kiss meant to her. But she knew it was wrong, she turned to face the road as David stepped back. She took of leaving him behind staring after her. As she checked the review mirror and found his figure standing there just watching, her eyes welled with tears 'why did he have to be married?'

**********

The next day on the set things were awkward, very awkward. She couldn't even look at him without thinking of last night and that kiss...Oh God that kiss.

Sneaking glances at her every minute, David felt so guilty for what he had done, not to his wife so much, more towards Sarah. Maybe he was wrong maybe she didn't feel the same, no she definitely kissed him back. A smile tugged at his lips at the thought of their shared kiss last night. But it wasn't right; he'd give anything to turn back time, and... oh who was he kidding he'd do the same thing all over again. The truth is he would give just about anything to kiss her again without everyone staring, and someone yelling cut, when stopping was last thing on his mind.

And now that his time on Buffy was coming to an end how was he going to show her, how was he going to prove his feelings towards her? Only days to go and that would be it, no more seeing her smiling face every morning. No more goofing off on the set, no more nothing, he probably wouldn't even see her again.

She always wanted something to happen between them she'd had feelings for him for so long now. But it was just the fantasy of it, she never wanted any kind of relationship with him, for God's sake he was married. Yeah right, she wanted nothing more than to be with him. She wanted it pretty much from their first meeting, her previous relationships only proof to that. Every time she got involved with a guy, without even knowing it she'd start comparing him to David. No one made her smile without even doing anything but walking into a room. No one made her laugh at the silliest things for hours on end. And no one could ever be the friend he had been to her over the last three years. She didn't want to lose that friendship, but then again she didn't want to throw away the only chance she may have at something more, 'damn if only he wasn't married.'

As the director called for them to take their places, Sarah went over to where he was standing. He looked so good, all in black and that shirt fitting to his chest so well, 'control yourself girl' she thought as she looked up at him, then looked back down when she noticed his stare.

He couldn't take his eyes off her, God she looked good in leather and her hair, oh he loved her hair, but most of all it was always her eyes that drew him in. He picked her up in his arms, ready and waiting for the director to call action. When the call came he ran down the hospital halls with her in his arms. For a moment he lost himself completely, looking at her lying there, her eyes closed. When he laid her down on the bed he struggled to say anything at all, he was fighting the desire to lie with her and hold her, and kiss her, and "Cut" came the call from the director, interrupting his thoughts.

"Sorry." David said, "I was at a loss for words"

Sarah blushed at his comment. 'Oh no did I just say that out loud.' Looking at her face he realized he had, she was smiling at him and her face was red. As embarrassed as he felt he couldn't help but smile back. This was going to be a long and hard day.

**********

Sitting in her trailer, she read over the script preparing herself for her next scene. She was interrupted by a knock at the door.

"Yeah, I'm coming." She yelled thinking it was her cue to be back on set.

"Sarah."

Dropping her script and coming to her feet, she realized who it was calling her name.

"David?"

"Yeah it's me, can I come in." he said through the door.

"Ah now's not really a good time." She said as she checked herself in the mirror and adjusted her clothing.

"Please, I need to talk to you."

"Okay." she replied as she opened the door.

Climbing the steps into her trailer and closing the door behind him, he stood there trying to say whatever it was he needed to.

"Ah....' he began "Well what I wanted... ummm..." She just stared at him, not knowing what to say herself. "Sarah... look I... can I kiss you?" he finally blurted out.

"Yes." she replied in an instant.

With two quick strides he stood in front of her and captured her in his arms. Wrapping her arms around his neck she kissed him like she had always wanted to, kissed him like the scripts for their characters had never asked. She kissed him even though she knew she shouldn't, and he kissed her back devouring her mouth in a way that had been denied for so long.


Chapter 3

They had been kissing for at least ten minutes, David pulling her tightly against him. He didn't want to let go of her, and when she tried to pull away he cupped her head with his hand, tangling his fingers in her hair, not letting her resist. Eventually they broke apart for air, that was when she let go of him and walked to the other side of the trailer. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist, then started planting kisses on her neck and shoulder.

"Okay now we really need to talk" she said as her hands came to rest on his, prying them apart she slipped out of his arms, and walked over to the couch to sit down.

Following her again he sat down beside her. "I know." he said dreading the moment, what was he going to say, how would they be able to be together? They would find a way, nothing was impossible when it came to the one you loved.

"I don't know what this is between us, all I now is that I've dreamt of it for so long, and to finally have a chance it's something I don't want to let slip away. On the other hand I don't see how this could work."

In that moment David didn't think he could have been happier, she really did feel the same way he did, and she'd had these feelings for a while, just like he. He had fallen under her spell the day he had set eyes on her, and then every time after that when he had guest starred on the show, but at the time he was involved, with his now wife. The reason he never made a move was not only his wife, but he wasn't sure he was going to be around after they shot the first season of Buffy, and she'd be so busy with work. Really was there any reason to hurt Ingrid over what he thought was nothing. Clearly now he should have, now things were going to be a lot more painful. He remembered that not long after he and Ingrid had married he'd gotten the call to be a regular on the show, and all he could think in that moment was that he was going to see Sarah again. He dismissed the feelings though, putting it down to simply enjoying her friendship. If only he had any idea that those feelings he’d dismissed for her were mutual, if only he knew before the date of his wedding maybe he wouldn't have gotten married. But it was too late for that now, two years to late. The important thing now was that he had a chance to finally be happy, to be with the woman he truly loved and she wanted the same thing, but she did have a point, how was this going to work?

"So where do we go from here?" he asked, returning his attention to their conversation.

"I don't know. I can't ask you to leave your wife for me David, and I can't be with someone who is married."

"I understand." he replied looking down at his hands, trying not to show his pain. "Would it help if I told you that I wanted to be with you, that I love you." he said the last part in almost a whisper.

Sarah was shocked; she didn't know what to say to that. But she couldn't just sit there doing nothing, finally she spoke up.

"No that wouldn't hel-... You love me?" she said her features softening at his declaration.

He smiled at her "Yeah, I fight it but its there, it’s always been there." By the look on her face he can tell she is a little confused "I’m not asking you to feel the same I just-"

"I love you too David, so much." was her reply.

David tried to smile but couldn't, as her lips locked on his in a kiss. It was soft and slow and it brought tears to her eyes, she was really sitting there kissing him, no cameras, no lights, just the two of them. That was until they were interrupted.

Without even knocking Alyson entered the trailer, about to tell Sarah that they were due back on set. She wasn't really surprised to see the couple kissing, they rehearsed in their trailers often, but then she realized they didn't exactly have a kissing scene to be rehearsing.

"Sorry" she said when she realized she had just walked in on them, retreating the way she came she closed the door behind her.

"I think we just got caught out." smiled Sarah, as she sat back on the couch.

"Yeah I think we did." he smiled back, not caring at all that Alyson had seen them.

"Sarah." Alyson called from outside the trailer.

"Yeah Aly, I'll just be a minute." She turned to face David "Look we have to get back on set, but we really need to have a talk about this."

"We do, so..."

"Well I'll meet you in your trailer after we're done for the day."

"Okay." he smiled at her before leaning in to press a quick kiss against her lips.

When they opened the door, he descended the steps with her close behind. He couldn't look at Aly who was still standing there waiting for them, but he didn't want to look as though he had done something wrong, so he gave her a warm smile.

Without a word she smiled back at David, before grabbing Sarah by the arm and heading back up the steps and into her friend’s trailer. After closing the door she turned to face her blonde friend.

"Okay now spill."


Chapter 4

"What?" questioned Sarah playing innocent.

"You know what." Said Alyson, trying to hide the smile tugging at the corner of her mouth.

"I have no idea, but anyway I think we better get moving, we have a show to make." she said as she headed towards the door.

Stepping in front of her Alyson asked "Sarah, what was that that I walked in on? Tell me."

"Oh you mean me and David; we were just going over a few scenes."

"Oh really, I didn't realize you had a kissing scene to go over." she said with a smirk on her face

Sarah couldn't help but smile; even though she was clearly busted she didn't seem to care. Did that make her a bad person, not caring that she had been caught kissing another woman’s husband? All she could think about was how being with David and finally coming clean about the way she felt to him was affecting her, when the number one thing here was his wife. She was going to be that girl, the one she never wanted to be. She was going to break up a marriage; no matter how hard she tried she couldn't get it out of her mind. Was what she felt for David really worth it? No time to think about it now, she had to get moving and she still had to give Aly an answer.

"Aly it's a long and complicated story, that I don't have the ending to, so can we talk about this another time, please?"

Aly slumped her shoulders in defeat, so she wasn't about to tell her now, that's okay she'd get it out of her eventually. "Sure... we should get going anyway."

Sarah smiled grateful that they had dropped the subject, she really wasn't ready to talk about her relationship with David, if you could even call it that, but when she was she knew that her friend would be all ears. Besides Aly was the only other who had any idea about the way she felt about him over the years, it was only natural that she would want to know if something was happening between them.

**********

On the library set the new found lovers couldn't stop sneaking glances and smiling at each other, this was one of their last scenes together; they only had one more to shoot after today. But this time around it didn't seem to bother them as much as yesterday. Maybe that was due to the fact that before they seen it at as something coming to an end, but now with everything that had happened in the last twenty four hours, it was like a whole new beginning. Sure they had a lot yet to talk about, and a lot of issues to work through, but right now they were just enjoying being around each other.

Alyson just sat there in between takes staring at them; they were so perfect together she just couldn't understand why it had taken them so long. When the rest were no longer needed on the set, and it was time to shoot a B/A scene, Aly winked at Sarah before following Nicky out. Nicky noticing it asked "What was that all about?"

"What?" She asked, wanting to hit herself for being so obvious.

"That little exchange between you and Sarah."

"I have no idea what your talking about." she tried to lie.

"Uhuh, so why don't I believe you?"

Alyson only smiled back at him, before heading to her trailer. As she walked away leaving Nicky standing there trying to figure it out, it dawned on him.

"Women, I'll never understand them."

**********

After shooting an emotional scene David and Sarah headed back towards his trailer. Once they were out of view, David took her hand in his as they walked. They didn't really say anything, just smiled at each other as they walked before finally coming to his trailer. Opening the door for her, Sarah let go of his hand to go inside, and instantly came to a stop once she had a view of the couch. David coming up behind, bumped into her, smiling as he apologized, his smile quickly disappeared once he seen what Sarah's attention was focused on. Sitting on the couch in his trailer was his wife in tears.


Chapter 5

"Ingrid?" he said shocked to see his wife sitting in his trailer crying. "What's wrong?"

She sits back looking up for the first time since she heard the door open. When she sees Sarah her expression changes and she instantly becomes annoyed that the blonde is in her husband’s trailer. Looking back over at David as he comes to sit next her on the couch she asks

"What is she doing in here?"

David is taken aback by the hostility towards his co star form his wife, he knew that Ingrid had issues when it came to Sarah, but to be so rude as to just blurt it out he couldn't believe it.

"Ingrid, that's wasn't necess-."

"No David its fine." Interrupted an upset Sarah, although she was doing a good job at hiding it. "We can go over those scenes in the morning." She said as she turned around taking the steps to exit his trailer.

"Sarah wait." he said as he stood to try and stop her or explain, or at least do something.

When he got to the door she was already a fair distance away, he wanted nothing more than to run after her, and reassure her that she was the one he wanted, and that nothing could change that. He wanted to tell her that he was going to tell his wife, just not right now. But he knew he couldn’t leave, had to be there for Ingrid. It was the least he could do after the way he was about to hurt her. Stepping back inside and closing the door behind him, he forgot the fact that she was still crying for a second.

"I wouldn't hurt to be nice, you know."

"What?" she said shocked that he was defending Sarah when she was clearly upset.

"Sarah, she hasn't done anything wrong." as soon as he said it he realized that he was wrong, she had done something wrong or at least that's how Ingrid would see it, she had kissed him back and told him that she loved him. As much as he wanted to smile at the thought of Sarah loving him, he couldn't it was wrong. ‘My wife is here in my trailer upset and all I can think about is another woman, what a husband.’ David eventually snapped out of his thoughts as he heard her speak.

"No she just always seems to be around you." she said as more tears spilled free

Sitting back down next to her and putting his arm around her back to comfort her, he tried to reassure her. He knew he couldn't tell Ingrid that he was in love with someone else, he knew that something bad had happened and that he needed to be there for her.

"Honey look, we work together that's all." he lied feeling so guilty that things had come to this. "Why don’t' you tell me what's got you so upset." he said as he turned her face towards him.

Sniffling and wiping at her tears she stood to put some distance between them, she had no idea of how she was going to tell him, but she had to try.

"David I... ummmm... I'm pregnant."

"What?" he said jumping to his feet

"I'm pregnant, or at least I think I am." she said bursting into tears again.

Oh god this changed everything, she was pregnant, his wife was pregnant; he was going to be a dad. He couldn't believe it, they had created a life and he was going to be a father. He suddenly realised that he had wanted to tell her that he had found someone else, that he was in love with someone else. How could he do that now, his wife was carrying his child, he couldn't just turn his back on her, or the baby for that matter. So this meant that any chance he had with Sarah was gone, that his chance to feel true love couldn't be reached, he had to let her go. That’s if he even really had her in the first place, yeah they had kissed and confessed their love but where were things headed after that, would they have really have had a future? It seemed that that was something he would never know, as he was going to be a father and he had to put the child before what he wanted. Besides he wanted this child and its not like he didn't love Ingrid, he'd married her for god's sake. How was he going to tell Sarah that what had happened between them was a mistake, that they could never be. David was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard Ingrid ask.

"What are we going to do?" she asked sobbing.

"Where going to have a baby." he smiled.

Ingrid didn't think that he would want the child, she was actually hoping on it, as she just couldn't envision herself as a mother. And now seeing the smile on his face it looked as though he was happy, 'So what, he wants this baby? Well it's not up to him.' she thought.

"Wrong David I'm going to have a baby." she spat.

David was confused, what was that supposed to mean? That she didn't think he was going to be there for her, or was it that the baby wasn't his? No of course it was, Ingrid would never have been unfaithful, no he was the one who was unfaithful. As much as he felt guilty for what he had done, he didn't regret it, he loved Sarah so much that every moment they had shared together in each others arms was a miracle, and one he would always remember. He knew that he had to put what had happened with her behind him and focus on his wife. So what was his wife trying to say? Suddenly it dawned on him.

"You don't want this child."

Looking up at him, her eyes still filled with tears she whispered "No."

"So what, you want to terminate it."

She didn't reply, she just looked away from him. He couldn't believe it he had wanted kids for as long as he could remember and now, he was being denied one when it already existed. It was growing inside her, and she wasn't going to give him the chance to love it like he deserved.

"There's no way you are taking this away from me." he spat

"It's my body; it's up to me what I do with it."

If David thought he was angry before it was nothing compared to the rage that was flowing through his veins now, 'How dare she' he thought.

"Wrong Ingrid, it's not just up to you. That's OUR baby you’re carrying, not just yours."

"But I'm carrying it; it's growing in my body."

"And that right there doesn't make you think how amazing it all is, it doesn’t make you think that you have given the gift of life to something so innocent, you can't just take it away."

"David I don't want to be a mother, I don't want to have children, not now not ever."

When she said that it felt like she had stuck a knife in his heart, moments ago he was thinking of the best way to eventually tell her that he wanted to be with Sarah no matter how guilty he felt, and now he was trying to save the life of an innocent from his own wife. How could anyone not want a child, it's not like they were too young or couldn't afford to raise one. They were even married damn it, it went against everything he believed to even think of getting rid of this child. He had to find a way to change her mind.

"I think you just need time, to let it sink in."

"No David you don't get it, I don't need time, I need to not be pregnant."

"Damn it Ingrid, could you just think for one second what it is that you’re saying. You want to kill something, don't you see how bad that is, how wrong it is." Finally it struck him there might just be a way to convince her, hopefully she was too far into her pregnancy that and abortion would be out of the question.

"How far along are you anyway?" He asked as he lowered his voice

"I don't know, I haven't seen a doctor yet."

"So you don't even know if you are pregnant?" David asked a little disappointed.

"Oh no I definitely am, I did a home pregnancy test and it was positive, so I did another one and that was positive too. That and I have been really sick lately, so I rang my doctor I have an appointment in four days to find out how far along I am."

"Well we wrap up shooting in two days, I can come with you." he said as he drew her into his arms.

"Okay." she said as she sobbed against his chest

Four days until he found out if he was going to be a father or not, four days of hoping that she was at least three months pregnant, four days in which to tell Sarah, and walk away from the only woman who could ever make him feel complete.


**********


Sarah had every intention of going to her trailer and waiting for David, until she realized how stupid the idea was. ‘He is in his trailer with his wife, comforting her.’ Her heart started breaking at the idea, and she couldn’t help but feel guilty, she was jealous hat he was being there for his wife, when she needed him.
‘Of course his wife is going to come first, she always will. They have years together and what do we have, a few kisses over the last day. Like that would ever be enough to make David re-think his vows.’ All she knew was that she loved him, and she wanted to be with him, and although she thought about it before, now more than ever she understood that what they had done, giving into their feelings they way they had, was wrong. If only she knew that David loved her more, maybe in the end it was better that she didn’t

Grabbing her stuff out of her trailer she headed towards her car. On the drive home she realized that she had to let him go, even though her heart was telling her otherwise. Sometimes no matter how much you love someone it’s just not meant to be.



Chapter 6

That night when he took Ingrid home all he could think of as he lay next to her was the child growing inside her, and the fact that she didn't want it. It hurt so much that there was a good chance that he was going to be a father and she wanted to take it away from him. Then his thoughts drifted to Sarah, he knew that if it were her carrying his child that she wouldn't even think of getting rid of it. Sarah loved children as much as he; she'd shown it time and time again when his sister would bring her children to the Buffy set. It hurt more than he thought possible that she was the one woman that wanted everything he did, and yet he couldn't have her.

**********

As Sarah tried to fall asleep all she could think about was David and how happy she was only moments before reaching his trailer. She knew she would never love another like she did him, but there was nothing she could do about it, she always knew he was married, but seeing his wife in his trailer just reinforced it, and made it so much more painful. She couldn't come between them even if David wanted it himself, she just couldn't do it.

**********

The next day on set Sarah didn't have any scenes with David and didn't get a chance to see him, she thought that maybe he was avoiding her, because he had regretted what they had done. She kept asking Aly if she had seen him yet, and this made Aly want to know what was going on even more so than before.

When she wasn't needed on set she locked herself in her trailer and tried not to let herself cry, 'Oh God why do I feel like this? It’s feels like I've just ended a serious relationship, I guess it's because that's something we will never get to have. Maybe if I had never of kissed him, then I wouldn't be feeling this way. No I'd be worse, because then I would never have known what it would be like to kiss someone I truly loved.' Sarah was startled out of her thoughts when she heard a knock at her door.

"David." she whispered to herself, and although she was sad, a smile crossed her face.

When she opened the door to her trailer she was a little disappointed to see Aly standing there. Aly had noticed that something was wrong with her friend all day; she knew it had something to do with David, considering she asked about him the whole time she’d been there that day.

"Sarah are you okay?" she asked still standing outside.

"No." she said as she burst out in tears.

Aly quickly climbed the steps to her trailer, and threw her arms around her friend as she sobbed against her. After a while Sarah eventually pulled away and wiped at her tears with shaky hands, Aly turned around and locked the door then directed Sarah to sit on the couch.

**********

David stood there for a while contemplating what to do 'Should I just knock on her door, and tell her? But I don't want to, I want to be with her, but I can't, no everything’s changed now.' He was about to walk over towards Sarah's trailer when he saw Aly approaching it from another direction.

He watched as the red head knocked on the door and stood outside as Sarah spoke to her, he tried to get a glimpse of the blonde beauty but couldn't, eventually Aly went inside and closed the door behind her. David knew he had to talk to her; he had to explain about last night.

**********

"What happened?" she asked her blonde friend as she stroked her hair.

"Oh Aly how did my life get so messed up?" she said before burying her head in her hands as she continued crying.

"What do you mean?" she asked, knowing it might make her feel better if she talked to someone about it.

"David." she said then reached for some tissues.

"What did he do?" she asked rubbing her friends back

"He told me he loved me." she said before bursting into tears again.

"Okay I can see how that might upset you." said Aly a little confused.

"You don't understand he's married, and we kissed, more than once, and I told him I loved him too, and HE'S MARRIED.” she said as she tried to calm herself.

"Well he's obviously not happily married."

"What do you mean?" Asked Sarah as she dabbed the tissue just under her eyes wiping away her tears.

Just then there was a knock at the door, both girls looked at it without moving.

"Sarah are you in there? It's me David... I need to talk to you."

Sarah sat there shaking her head and mouthing no to Aly.

"Ahhh David." the red head began "now's not a good time, can you come back later."

He didn't want to leave, but what else could he do aside from breaking in the door. "Okay." he replied as he slowly walked away 'she doesn't want to talk to me, who could blame her with what I'm about to tell her.'

"Thank you." Sarah whispered to her friend

"It's okay, but you do realize that you have to talk to him sooner or later right?"

"Yeah I know, just not when I'm all splotchy." She said fixing her hair and wiping more tears away from her eyes. "So what did you mean about not happily married?"

"Well, if he said that he loved you and kissed you, than don't you think that maybe he wants to be with you." Aly said trying to reassure her friend.

"Aly I can't be with someone who's married."

"No but is he staying married?"

"I don't know, we were supposed to talk about it last night but... Ingrid."

"What did she say?" asked the red head knowing how David's wife always acted towards Sarah.

"Oh nothing, but seeing her just made it more real, if that makes sense."

"Sarah I don't know what to say except... GROW UP."

Sarah stopped sniffling and looked at her friend in disbelief. "What?" she said in a shaky voice.

"You heard me grow up, you have been in love with him for how long now, and you've seen first hand the way his wife treats him. And now you finally find out that the guys in love with you too, which might I just add was so obvious, and you sit here crying about it. David's not happy with her, and you see it too, this is your chance and you just seem content to sit here crying about it."

Sarah tried to soak in everything Aly had just said to her "So what do I do?"

"What do you think? Fight for him, isn't he worth it?"

"Oh my God..."

"What?" questioned Aly

"You're right." Sarah said as she smiled for the first time since she had seen him last night.

**********

Soon after Sarah and Aly had had their talk, they were called to board the bus to go on location. She walked to the bus doors with her head down and bumped into David who was standing there waiting to get on.

"Sarah." he couldn't help but smile when he seen her, but that smile soon faded when he remembered what he had to do.

"David, hey." she smiled back, she loved the way he said her name.

They stood there just starting at each other for what felt like forever to everyone else, yet not long enough to them.

"You guy's getting on the bus, or just standing there?" asked Nicky who was already seated on the bus along with everyone else, waiting for the two to board so they could leave. David smiled at her and said.

"You first." as he gestured for her to go ahead of him.

Her only reply was a smile. He silently hoped that he could sit next to her, he didn't want to tell her on a bus of all places, yet he just wanted to be near her as much as possible these last days.

Sarah sat next to Charisma and the two started talking instantly, about nothing in particular. As much as David got along with Nicky he was disappointed to be sitting anywhere that wasn't near Sarah.

"What's up?" Nicky asked as he noticed the look on David's face.

"Nothing." replied David not too convincingly.

"I'm not buying it."

David didn't say anything; he just sat there deep in thoughts about Sarah and his wife, 'Why does everything have to be so hard.'

"I know what it is." said Nicky

"Huh." David said coming back to reality.

"Your gonna miss me aren't ya? It's understandable I'm pretty missable."

David laughed, "Yeah that's it."

**********

They had been shooting at the school all night and David had one scene left to do. Joss called for a break but warned everyone not to go far, especially Sarah and David. He spotted her talking to Charisma, and knew that this was the only chance he was going to get to talk to her. He approached the two girls quietly, and actually startled Sarah when he said her name.

"Sarah."

She jumped then turned to face him. "Hey." she said looking up at him.

"Can we talk… privately." he added as he looked at Charisma then back at Sarah.

"Yeah sure, wanna take a walk?" She asked, she was trying to think of what she was going to say to him, should she just tell him straight out that she was going to fight for him?

"Yeah."

"Okay." she said as she followed his lead and walked around the school grounds and stopped just behind one of the large buildings, where they couldn't be seen or heard.

"I'm sorry about last night, with Ingrid." he said as he took her hand in his.

"It's okay, I mean I understand she's your wife." she said as she slipped her hand out of his, a little uncomfortable on the topic of his wife, this made her re-think her decision. Or at least she thought she shouldn’t touch him while he was still married, that was if he even wanted to leave his wife.

"Still what she said, she was out of line." He said disappointed that her hand was no longer in his.

"Was she?"

"I guess not but-"

"David don't worry about it, she's your wife, I'm not... I'm well, nothing."

"No Sarah, your not you’re... you're everything." He whispered

"David please don't say things like that to me, this can't ever be anything, so don't." ‘This is where you tell me that I’m wrong and it can’ she thought.

"I'm sorry; I just… I need to tell you something."

"What?" she said looking into his eyes.

“That I wish thing's were different.” Picking up her hand again and this time not letting her pull it away “Sarah I love you so much, and I wish more than anything that I could be with you, and make love to you. That's what I was going to tell you last night, that I wanted to give us a chance and see where it goes. That I wanted to be with you and not Ingrid.”

Sarah was speechless and tears started to well in her eyes 'Is he really saying this to me? Wait did he say he was going to? So what stopped him?'

“But last night, when Ingrid was in my trailer crying, well she came to the set because she had some news.” He paused not knowing how to tell her. “She's pregnant, I'm going to be a dad.” he smiled.

If Sarah thought that she had ever felt the pain of a broken heart before she was wrong, no this was what it felt like. She pushed her tears back and her eyes turned cold.

"Wow David, way to rub it in. First you tell me you love me and that you want to be with me, and then you tell me your wife’s pregnant. Sorry if I'm not overjoyed by the news, it's kind of hard to be when my heart is breaking." she said as her tears surged forward and spilled down her cheeks.

"Sarah I'm sorry, but what do you want me to do." he pleaded.

"Well don't tell me you love me, and just... stay away from me." She spat and started walking away.

"Sarah." he yelled as he chased after her. "I'm sorry."

"Me too David."

He spun her around to face him, then reached out and cupped her cheek with his palm "Believe me if there was another way, I'd take it, but I can't walk away from this baby, I just can't."

Sarah realized he was right, he was only trying to do the right thing, she had to admire that about him, no matter how much it hurt "I understand." she said as more tears spilled free.

They stood like that for a while, not saying anything; David with his hand still cupping her cheek ran the pad of his thumb across her lips.

"I don't want to walk away from you." he whispered.

"And I don't want you to." she replied as she looked back up at him, his hand now sliding up her jaw, and into her hair.

Instantly his lips locked with hers, and he pulled her body close to his. She parted her lips and slid her tongue into his mouth trying to memorize the taste and feel of him, so she could remember it forever. He kissed her like it was the last time he'd ever kiss someone he loved again, massaging her tongue with his own, tangling his fingers in her hair, neither pulled apart for air until they heard someone near.

"Has anyone seen Sarah and David." one of the assistants was yelling.

Reluctantly letting go of him she noticed the tears welling in his eyes and couldn't help but lean forward and kiss him quickly again, even if it meant getting caught. When they heard the footsteps getting closer they straightened up and wiped at their eyes before emerging.

"There you guys are, their just about ready for you on set, so I suggest you get moving." he said smiling at the pair.

**********

Shooting their final scene proved to be more difficult than first thought, Sarah just couldn't get it out of her head that this was it, it was over. She cried every time they shot the scene. Now trying just about anything to pull herself together she waited for the call.

"Action."

Turning around and seeing him standing there, smoke surrounding him, she held back on her tears and just looked at him. ‘This is the last time I get to see him, this is it, don't cry, oh god don't cry.'

David stood there looking at her not wanting to turn away, the whole time he wasn't even in character, all he could think was that he was leaving her. 'I love you Sarah.' he thought to himself just before he turned and walked away.

'Oh god, he's really leaving.' She said as she did nothing but watch his retreating form.

"And Cut, you guys that was great."

**********

After finishing up on a few other scenes they all boarded the bus. On the drive back both Sarah and David just sat there, not saying anything, as everyone chatted around them.

After a long night shooting the last scenes for the season, Sarah climbed into her bed and drifted off to sleep, her tears soaking her pillow.

David couldn't bring himself to lay next to Ingrid that night, not only because of how she felt about their unborn child, but because he had another on his mind. He decided some TV would do him good, settling back on the lounge, he flicked through the channels and thought of her, he imagined what life with her would have been like, something he'd pictured only the other day so clearly in his mind, but now the image was lost.


Chapter 7

He'd seen Sarah once more the next day on set wrapping up the season, and saying goodbye to everyone, yet he never really got to say goodbye to her. Something he deeply regretted. He wanted so many times to pull her aside and tell her he was wrong, that he had made a mistake and that he wanted to be with her, regardless of the baby, but he knew it was something he just couldn’t do.

Tomorrow was the day he was going to find out how far along his wife was in her pregnancy, he hadn't been able to get the thought out of his head. Not that he was going to be a father, but rather the way his wife felt about it, that's what made him second guess things.

He thought that if his wife were over three months pregnant than she wouldn't be able to do anything but have the child, yet say she did, was it really for the best, him staying with her? Would it really be a good thing for the child to be raised by two parents that really just weren't meant to be together?

It's not that he didn’t love his wife, he did, just not the way he used to, or was that just because of his feelings for Sarah. Regardless tomorrow was a big day for the both of them, but as much as it clouded his mind, Sarah was still in his thoughts.

*********

The next day just seemed to drag on; he counted down the hours till his wife’s appointment at two that afternoon and when it was finally time to go, the drive over there was horrific. Traffic was unbelievable and at one point he thought they were going to miss the appointment all together. But they made it and with five minutes to spare. Waiting anxiously and flipping through out of date magazines David was nervous about seeing the doctor

When the doctor finally called Ingrid, he stood throwing a magazine back on the table and followed his wife into the room. The doctor spoke to Ingrid about her two previous home pregnancy tests and decided that even though both had shown up as positive, he would still prefer to do a blood test, just to do things properly.

After taking the test they waited while the doctor had a look at the results before they would have an ultrasound to check the baby’s heartbeat and to see how far along the pregnancy was. David was so nervous he hoped she was past the 12 week mark, he was also a little excited too, he was going to see his baby.

"Okay well it looks like I have your results, and your not pregnant." said the doctor sitting back down behind his desk.

"What?" David and Ingrid exclaimed at the same time.

"But I took two home pregnancy tests, and the line... it was there." She said in disbelief.

"Yes I understand that, but your blood is telling a different story."

"What do you mean?" asked David.

"Well what your wife found with her home tests was two false positives. It's when the test says you're pregnant but you're not, they are very rare. But I have come across them before." He looked back over at Ingrid "Ingrid on the tests was the line faint or dark."

"Faint." she answered still trying to understand everything, the doctor had just said.

"And what time of day did you take the test?"

"The first about 4pm, and the second about 7pm."

"Why? Asked David.

"Well when taking a urine test you should do so in the morning, that way it is most concentrated and will provide a better reading."

"So I'm definitely not pregnant?"

"No, I'm sorry."

A smile crept on Ingrid's face, she was glad she wasn't pregnant; she wasn't ready for a baby she doubted she ever would be. David noticed the smile on her face, and quickly got up and stormed out of the Doctors office. How could she be happy about this, it was something he always wanted and even if she had of been pregnant he probably wouldn't have gotten to keep the baby, thanks to her being so stubborn.

Running after him she stopped him outside "David wait, where are you going?"

"Here take the keys, drive yourself home, I need to get some air." he snapped

"But how will you get ho-"

"Just go." he yelled.

And she did, she walked of in a huff, and David did so to but in the other direction. He couldn't be near her right now, he was just so mad. He went to the first bar he came across and ordered himself a drink. He had hoped that his wife was far enough in her pregnancy not to be able to do anything but have the child, but he had never thought that she wasn't pregnant at all.

He sat there for an hour nursing his drink in one of the booths. And finally it dawned on him "Sarah." he whispered, if Ingrid wasn't pregnant then there was no reason he couldn't be with her. He had to talk to her that he knew for sure. Pulling out his cell he dialled her number, it only rang once before David hung up. 'No I have to see her, I'll go over there.’ he thought as he left the bar and hailed a cab.

On his way over to her house, for the first time that day he smiled. ‘Maybe it was a good thing Ingrid wasn't pregnant after all, It's not right to bring a child into the world when its parents shouldn't be together.’ He thought.

That was something else he still had to take care of, he had to tell his wife that he didn't want to be with her anymore, that he wanted someone else. He knew he should have spoken to Ingrid before Sarah, but he just couldn't help it, he missed Sarah already and he needed to see her so badly.

As the cab pulled up out the front of Sarah’s home he took a deep breath before getting out, this was it, this was everything he had been hoping for.


Chapter 8

Since she woke up that day, Sarah hadn't felt like doing much of anything, she sat around the house most of the day trying to do anything but think of him. At times it proved to be impossible, her thoughts drifting back to their conversation at the school that night, and their heart breaking last kiss.

That’s' all she really had left of him, a kiss that would always haunt her. Yesterday was her last day on set with him and she'd done everything in her power to avoid him. She did feel guilty about never really getting a chance to say goodbye, but in a way she felt it had all been said the night before.

She sat on the couch eating mouthfuls of ice cream, and watching old movies mostly with sad endings, she couldn't stand the ones where everything worked out for the couple, as it was not the way real life worked. She noticed a flash outside then suddenly rain started pouring down 'good a storm, now this actually just gives me more reason to stay inside.’ she thought to herself.

Standing on her front step he ran his hand through his hair and tried to think of the right way to tell her. As much as he tried he just couldn't put it all together, his wife was no longer pregnant. He knew he wanted to be with Sarah, and that he wanted to leave Ingrid, but there's a difference between knowing and doing.

He couldn't just keep standing there thinking of what to say to her, he would know what to say when he seen her. Feeling the first drops of rain hit his face he finally brought his hand up, and he knocked on the door as the thunder shook the ground behind him.

When there was no answer, he nearly started panicking, he couldn’t handle the thought of her not being there, when he had to tell her something that would change everything.

The rain started pouring down and he was getting soaked, he heard the thunder crackle behind him and once again started knocking on her door, knowing this time that if there was no answer then she definitely wasn't home.

With the television turned up loud she sunk even deeper into the couch after setting down her tub of ice cream. When the thunder started she jumped at first thinking that it might have been someone banging on her door, but she realized it was just the weather and relaxed again. Focusing back on the movie she was startled once more when she heard banging again and this time realized that maybe there was indeed someone at her front door.

Slowly rising to her feet, she made her way to the door wearing only a snug pair of faded jeans and an over sized navy jumper that David had once lent her when they had been rehearsing in his trailer, and she had been cold.

She still remembered when she had tired to return it and he told her that it looked much better on her. Brushing aside the memory she turned the knob of her front door.

David was about to concede defeat and turn away until he saw the handle turning.

When she opened the door she was shocked to see him standing there. "David." she said in a soft whisper that could barley be heard over the thunder.

He swore he could listen to the way she said his name for the rest of his life, looking down at her, as he was dripping wet from the rain he had nothing to say, he had but one thing on his mind.

Taking the two steps that separated them, he cupped her head in his hands and brought his lips to hers, kissing her with the passion and love he'd never felt before.

Feeling his lips against hers she lost herself in him. She knew no one could ever kiss her like that, but David. Although as much as she was enjoying his lips against hers, she brought her hands up to his shoulders and pushed him away.

"Stop, we can't... " she said as she took a few steps back away from him.

"Yes we can." he said trying to kiss her again.

"No David, just stop!" she demanded.

Letting himself in he closed the door behind himself as Sarah just stared on in disbelief. "You can’t just tell me your wife is pregnant and that we have to walk away from each other, only to come here and kiss me like that." she spat.

"Sarah I'm sorry but you don't understand."

“No you don’t understand, you have to stay away from me.” She said sadly.

“You know as well as I do that that’s not possible.” He said walking towards her like she was his prey.

“David you just have too okay.” She said fighting back the tears.

“I can’t, there’s something I need to tell you.”

"What?" she asked confused.

"Ingrid isn’t pregnant."

At his words she felt like jumping up and down for joy, or at least jumping on him. But she was a little shocked to do either, she also felt kind of bad for David, she knew how much he wanted a child and now his wife wasn't pregnant. She had a million questions running through her head, she decided to address the first and most important one.

"Is that why your here?" she asked.

"Yes." he smiled.

"Oh." she said the disappointment clearly evident in her voice. "So you just thought that since she's not pregnant, that what David, you and I?"

"Well it does make things a lot easier." he said taking another step closer to her.

"How can say that? You told me you didn't want me, that you wanted to be with your wife and your child, and now that things don't work out you come running back to poor little Sarah cause you know she'll take you back."

"What? Sarah no I never said I never wanted you, I always did, I still do. I chose being there for a baby I thought I was having over you because I thought it was the right thing to do. I know now that it wasn't, I even kind of knew before but I just couldn't think straight everything was just so confusing." he said shaking his head.

"Tell me about it." she sighed "Look David I still don’t' think it's a good idea you being here, we can't ever be-"

"Why." he asked cutting her off.

"David you're married." she said softly.

"I know but I'm not in love with her, I'm in love with you." he said stepping closer again.

"Don't." she said putting up a hand, trying to resist and step back away from him.

He paused looking at her, slowly he brought his hand up to cup her cheek "Tell me that you don't feel the same and I'll never say it again." he said as his thumb caught her stray tear.

"I-I... " she couldn't say anything, she couldn't do anything but cry "I'm so in love with you." she said as she looked up at him.

Instantly he wrapped his arms around her and brought her lips to his. He kissed her so fiercely at first, before slowing down and simply letting his tongue explore her sweet mouth.

Pulling away she pressed her brow to his as he walked her backwards to her room.

"You look so good in my clothes." he said, admiring the sight that she was swimming in his jumper.

"But I think you'd look so much better out of them." he said in a husky whisper as he pressed his lips to her neck.

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